Bro. Jeremy Spurlock author of Breaking The Silence
is here to address issues and questions affecting our youth.
He will post responses to questions on this page
or via email if discretion is necessary.
"I've been raised in a good home, not all of my family is saved, but I've been taught good morals for how my parents are. I've been going to a holiness church for several years now... I know what it is to truly be saved and filled with the Holy Ghost. But for about 2 years now, I've really been struggling and going thorough a lot of battles. It seems like everyday it gets a little bit worse. I know when I mess up, I know when I do wrong, I've prayed I don't know how many times for the Lord to help me and give me strength to overcome. He's helped me a lot, but it seems I always lose the battle... The devil always wins. I don't want to loose, I want to be a faithful Christian.
I know the Lord has a plan for my life and I want him to be able to fulfill his will in me. But I know if I'm not living right, he can't... It seems like every time I do pray and feel the Lord, the devil always brings up my past and makes me think it's not really ok... the Lord really hasn't forgiven me... I know he does forgive, I know he does forget, but it's hard for me to come to that place of totally victory. That place where I know that I'm saved without a doubt.
I've came to the place that I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm empty and don't have the strength to go on, but I don't want to give up and turn my back completely on him. I need help desperately! I realize that the Lord is coming soon and we need to be living holy and pure now, more than ever before. How can I do this? How can I have total victory again? How can I stand even when times get hard and the devil tries to knock me down? How can I have assurance that my past is forgiven? Thank you for taking time to read and answer my questions. I'm looking forward to hearing from you"
It sounds like your question is not to know what you need to do, but rather you’re asking how to do what you already know.
It is important to realize that in this Christian life there are many times we must make sure that we are doing the things that we already know that we should do.
It is a matter of diligence, determination, duty, devotion, and desire.
Allow your love for God to drive you to do those things you know you should do.
SIDE NOTE: You said you struggle to have assurance that your past has been forgiven. Well, this assurance comes from the WORD OF GOD, and from the Witness of the Spirit. It is more than just a feeling or an emotion! Assurance of salvation and forgiveness from sin are granted to us by Gods Word, and are signified by God’s Spirit.
And when the devil comes to remind you of the past, use the example that Christ gave in Matthew 4 and stand upon the Word of God. Remind him of the scriptures that give you complete assurance that your sins have been forgiven!
Make certain that you submit yourself to the will of God every day so that you may resist the devil and he MUST flee from you. James 4:7
Victory comes to a life that is surrendered and secure in Christ.
You do not have to go looking for it, or necessarily fight for it. You will simply find yourself living a victorious Christian life. It truly is - “Victory IN JESUS, my Savior, forever!”
Paul said, “And the life which I now live in the flesh, I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” But that was only after he had made certain that he was surrendered and fully submitted by stating that he was “crucified with Christ!” Galatians 2:20
In many cases - the problem is not knowing what to do, but it is doing what we know.
Revelation 19:7 “Let us be glad and rejoice, and give honour to HIM: for the marriage of the Lamb is come, and his wife hath made herself ready. And to her was granted that she should be arrayed in fine linen, clean and white: for the fine linen is the righteousness of saints.”
NOTICE: the bible says that the bride (which is the church – those who have been saved) had to make herself be ready.
So very often, no matter how long you have been saved, there are times that you must simply MAKE YOURSELF do the things you know to be right. You have to bring every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ. (2 Cor. 10:5) You have to crucify the desires of the flesh. (Gal. 5:24)
You have to make yourself do what is needed to live in Victory!